“To change the world, you must change yourself. You must learn to distinguish between love and fear in yourself and choose love no matter what is happening outside you or what is happening inside you. Then do it again. And again.” - Gary Zukav
The good news is, I can take a beating. The bad news is, I had no idea how long the fight was.
I have been surrounded by anger my entire life, it’s all I've ever known, inside and out. I was born into it, raised by it, molded from it, and motivated by it. But most importantly, because of my anger, I have suffered deeply.
Anger is my biggest obstacle to love, my largest roadblock to freedom, the thing that stands in between me (my personality) and my higher self (soul).
Starting yesterday, when I came to this realization, I have chosen to surrender and release my anger–I don't need it anymore–I’ve found a better way.
LOVE!
The world is not disappointing or unconscious–I am.
The world is not dishonest or untrustworthy–I am.
The world is not full of selfishness, greed and hate–I am.
The world is an exact reflection of ourselves.
We see in others that which we cannot or refuse to see and accept in ourselves.
And it is all rooted in fear.
Anger comes directly from fear, and because I have a new goal to release all anger, I'm choosing to face my fear directly, to free myself of suffering. This is spiritual practice.
Anger causes so much pain–it takes power away
Acceptance soothes pain–it gives you power
Do you want to know how I know that all fear and all anger creates destructive and painful consequences in life? Because I've had a non-stop front row 4D experience of it my entire life.
For the majority of my life I was unaware of the anger and fear controlling it. Not long ago, I became aware of my emotions. And now, I've consciously experienced my anger and fear long enough–I’ve suffered all the lessons I could possibly endure–I'm throwing in the towel–that's quite enough.
I'm now choosing to learn in a new way! The pain of choosing to express and be controlled by my anger is too great. I am now consciously choosing to set aside all of my personal preferences and fears in the service of love.
Someone riding my ass when I'm going 10 miles an hour over the speed limit? All good, no worries, it's not personal, let it go.
Get an amazing job opportunity offered to you but then have it taken away with no explanation? Not my problem, something better will come along. Let that shit go.
Try to do something bigger than yourself, something outside of your comfort zone and then get shot down? That “something” wasn't meant for you. Let it go bro.
Attempt, again and again, to follow your heart, follow your dreams and continue to fail? You haven't yet truly connected with your heart, so those aren't your dreams. Keep letting go!
I have a tendency to get angry and then very down. If I’m going through something difficult it can take me some time to process everything, but this is the standard reaction: I get pissed off first, then depressed for days/weeks. Of course this is not on purpose but I tend to lash out at the world in response to its ignorance. For example, I can't stand it when people are morally bankrupt or have absolutely no sense of self awareness. Or when I see senseless acts of violence, greed and corruption–it makes my blood boil!
I used to think the causes of these disturbances were external or because I was a highly sensitive person, or because I have ADHD or because I was never taught how to manage and navigate emotions as a child. But now I know that's not the whole truth.
The truth is, my reaction of anger to these external and internal “problems” are the problem. They are what creates the pain, the suffering and the inability to feel okay, fulfilled or content in life. And it’s all because of FEAR.
So no more! I've learned my lesson! It's obvious now. My path has been shown to me and I'm taking it. It’s time to exit the highway of fear.
No more suffering and agonizing through the painful lessons that I refuse to learn in service to my anger and fear–it hurts too much!
May he, her, it, whatever, show me the way and provide me the courage to choose love over anger; everyday, every minute, every second–Amen.
So that's me, but let me ask you; what's your “anger”, what's holding you back and keeping you stuck in a perpetual state of discontent, pain and suffering?
Here’s a hint, look around–what are the people like in your closest circles? Are they loving or mean? Are they quick to love or quick to anger? The people closest to you are showing you your inadequacies by reflecting back what you put out into the world. Imagine the five closest people in your life as personalities in a small shot glass filled with your liquor of choice. Now take all five of them and put them together in one shaker and mix it up, pour yourself a shot–that's you. Would you drink it?
If the answer is no, it’s time to get to work. Like me. Anger is disgusting so I don't want to drink it anymore.
“The parts of the personality that originate in fear are designed to bring awareness of the personality to the parts of itself that show it clearly what it must change in order to move beyond the control of those parts.” Gary Zukav
Thank you for reading!
With gratitude and love,